Snug as a Bug!!!!

This sweet little face has a 102 degree temperature! I love the snuggling but am broken hearted that she feels so horrible! Our older daughter had febral (?) seizures when she was little which sent us to the emergency room more than once. Once I thought that they were telling me that she wasnt going to make it! I have been a little jumpy today. I cant wait to see that smile again!

So often, I hear with a tsk, tsk, tsk that my kids do too much! I never stop running! "Oh, thats too much!" I hear! I wrack my brain trying to figure out what I am doing wrong because I feel my job is my children. God has blessed me with 4 beautiful & talented children. It took me a year & a half to get pregnant with my first child. Surgery & many many crying sessions doubting that it would happen. It took me another 4 years to figure out how to turn the faucet off! & then a surprise happened! I am blessed! They are good kids who love one another, they love their family, they love their school....you dont hear that very often. They love God. I can see him working in their lives everyday. My almost teenager is happiest & I mean bouncing off the walls on Wednesdays when he gets out of church. Smiling, TALKING!!!! He cant get the words out of his mouth fast enough! UM, can he go to church EVERY night? Yes, I said he was talking! God has given them talents that I do not understand. I simply am not athletic. I still trip on my own feet. I try to JOG around & WORK OUT with the kids. Unless I ducktape the upper region of my body to my body, I could seriously get hurt! I really did not get to do these things when I went to school. I want to watch them meet the goals that they set or be there of course if they dont. (You know the life savers commercial! With the Dad & his son after the basketball game! I will have life savers!) I want them to not be afraid to try new things. I always was a chicken!!!! I want them to have confidence and truly believe that through God, all things are possible. & I am truly thankful that they arent sit in front of the tv type of kids or play endless hours of video games. Although we are all addicted to wii fit (but we are doing it as a family)...I am the hula hoop champ!!!!!!!! I have become the ultimate sports fan. Baseball, soccer, basketball, golf, cheer, and a dance fan! & yes cheer & dance are sports! Have you seen that girls legs? Oh & did I mention that their grades are straight A's, A' & B's, & very goods! So, yes I am crazy, yes I am tired, yes, I have over 140,000 miles on my almost 5 year old car & yes I have a cluttered house! But I am also a very proud, in love Mommy who will get up tomorrow & figure out how I will make it to the 1st basketball game of the season & get the girl to dance at the same time on 2 different sides of town! While I am nursing the baby & listening to the 3rd grader read. I will fill up that car with gas for the 3rd time this week while I practice my hula hoop technique! (Hey those kids had to get something from me! & my name should be on the top of one of those lists!!!!!!) All I ask is for noone to show them the lacrosse flyer that BLD had the other day, Andrew said that he always liked lacrosse..... :)

Banana Bread Beauties!!!!!

I have been craving my mothers banana bread! Dan took the boys snowboarding on Sunday so I thought that it was perfect to spend some time in the kitchen with my girls!

It was delicious! It didn't last long with my family of 6!

2009 New Years Resolutions

I have made some personal New Years Resolutions.

-I gave up drinking sodas! I lecture my children about how bad they are for you, as I gulp down my 3rd of the day!

-I am going to work on my body. I didnt say the torture of exercise, but I want to take better care of what I have!

-I want to teach the kids how to cook. They always want to be in the kitchen with me so I want to take the time & teach better!

-I want to work on my special cookbook!

-I want to edit my book!

-I want to sew!

-I want to be ME again!

-I want to reconnect with friends!

I was asked by my mother in law what I wanted for Christmas. I didnt know what to say. My husband & I had already agreed to not exchange presents with each other (even though he didnt follow through with our agreement). I really wasn't into the Christmas spirit. Times are tough & at the time I still hadn't figured out what I was going to do for my kids yet. I told her that I did not need anything, but she persisted. She asked if their was something that I had always wanted but never got. I said that I was trying to save to buy myself a Kitchenaid mixer but kept depleting my savings on bills. My husband told me long time ago that I couldnt have a Kitchenaid mixer so I was determined to save up & buy one myself!!!! She said perfect& now I finally have my long awaited Kitchenaid mixer. It has given me a new direction & attitude. I was told that I couldnt have one, I accepted what I was told & didnt do what I wanted. For quite a few years now, I have been so worried about what everyone else thinks of me, I am just not myself anymore. I have sat & actually listened to family cut me down. I basically can do nothing right in their eyes. I try so hard to work on being perfect (which is impossible) that I fail even to myself every day! I have let another family bully my family. Bully us right into hibernation! I have secluded myself pretty much away from everyone & everything that I love. I have spent 4 years of the loneliest times of my life. I'M DONE!!!!! I have a KITCHENAID MIXER! I have decided that this year I am going to find ME! I am going to give myself a break! I am going to do the things that I have been putting off so I could worry about everyone else. I am in search of Kimi Jo again.